I keep justifying you.... why? *****
Nostalgia keeps bringing you back to me. From the first few laughs to the numbness that replaced them.***
I wonder how many people do this...just write whatever comes to mind without editing. Takes some guts. Hell I can't even put every thought down...too intimate...detailed and my secrets would be dripping from the tongue of everyone able to speak. Ugh human nature can be odious.
Shadows twist under the ferris wheel. I wonder if they live every night like this...happy and free. Her laughter every time he chases her sends chills of jealousy down my spine.
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Do you want because you don't have? Or simply because you truly do not want. What miseries have fallen on you that you wrestle with fate? Is it fear that drives you? Uncertainty telling you what if what you're looking for is still out there? Perhaps it has the right idea because angst isn't holding you back from losing what you already have. Conceivably...you may not comprehend what it is that you already have. We're all guilty of looking others over and finding them to be wanting. That is until we suffer privation and realize that they're no longer there.
The world sleeps and I cannot.
He says he feels like he pushed me to the furthest corner of the world and now I'm no where to be found.*****
The gypsy blood pumps steadily through my veins and into my heart...what did he expect to come from turning me into his middle distance runner?
But there is also something liberating about simply writing and not going back and editing. You tend to change your thoughts when you edit, because you don't like the way it came out initially. The raw writing provides better incite, it is generally truth in it's most naked form. While being that candid is frightening, I think it also would do a lot of good. As much as people lie about life and small thing's, I think that we truly appreciate honesty. When other's lay it all on the line, it is inspiring and may even spark some honesty into the lives of your readers. Keep it real. Otherwise, what's the point?
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